At a young age I learned to doubt myself. My older brother and father were tough on me. If I didn’t get something right away or make the right decision they would get impatient with me. I think because of this I learned to not trust myself in tough situations.
Now that I’m older because of the lack of trust in myself I tend to avoid most situations that could challenge me. I have fear and anxiety not because of the unknown but because I don’t know how I’ll respond.
I’m also sensitive so I get emotional from very small challenges. This adds a whole other challenge.
From this point forward though I’m going to practise setting boundaries to protect myself but ultimately trust myself that I will protect myself and figure my way out of situations when they come up. Since I don’t trust myself I tend to try and predict what will happen and prepare myself for it but what happens is I usually stress myself out and it ends up being counterproductive in the end. What I’ve figured out is that I need to let go a bit and figure it out when the problems come to me instead of predicting it since trying to predict exactly what will happen is impossible. I have the tools and values to live a good life but I can be a nice guy at times and let people control me.
So to conclude I need to trust myself that I can handle whatever is thrown at me and that I will stand tall with my boundaries for what I will accept and what I won’t accept from people. I’m a strong individual and on the right path and need to set clear lines with people. If you’ve made it this far I thank you for reading this and hope it helps you too.
